{"id":914,"date":"2016-06-15T01:13:58","date_gmt":"2016-06-14T23:13:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.wordpress.com\/?p=914"},"modified":"2023-12-16T17:42:33","modified_gmt":"2023-12-16T16:42:33","slug":"a-latinix-thing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/?p=914&lang=en","title":{"rendered":"A Latinx Thing"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>This poem is written out of sadness, sickness, lost hope and the fear to out failures of communitys, which are so essential to save lifes. This poem isn&#8217;t written in one of my languages because they are to close to my heart, so i jused my little english skills to raise my voice. this poem is written in Berlin by a afro Latinix, who can&#8217;t talk and jusge everyone everywhere who talks about her connections, impressions and feelings.<br \/>\nThis poem is between all those things.<br \/>\nThis poem is called:<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Recorded reading of the poem &quot;a latinix thing&quot; by SchwarzRund\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/MZ70MRXm6uM?start=175&#038;feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p><strong>A Latinix Thing<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">Those last days where filled up with <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">Voices that turned they own volume far to loud<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and voices<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">that are noises about justice<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">regulary<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but now are<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">the silent<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">inside of me<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">these last days<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my interdependent heart<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">became broken<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my queerness was erased<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my migration was unheard<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my blackness offered only a destroyed hope<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">for<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">community that cares.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">Those last days my so-often unheard<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my so-often lonely<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my so-often unknown queer identiy<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">wasn&#8217;t seen<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it was about every other group on earth<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it was about every other oppression, hope and boundery<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it was not<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">about us<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we have names.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">We have storys<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are so divers it became hard to build up bounderies<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">our fights are so different from each other <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">so different its hard to find even words<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are those of double-, trible-, and so on diaspora<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are those who are too white<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">for beeing mourned by Black communitys in Germany<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we speak only colonialized languages<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">so u don&#8217;t se us as \u201ethat\u201c black<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">forgetting our history<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">forgetting why<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">our skin is sometimes lighter<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it&#8217;s a history of abuse<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it&#8217;s a history of destroying every part of our souls they could get<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and replace it with spain, french&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and we where to black to forget<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">our ancestors<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we turned colonialized languages into our own<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we challenging colonialized pictures<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">in our resitence<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but we stay away<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">from your hearts<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and i see your struggles to compansate this <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but you know, siblings from the continent<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">my heart knows why you are writing PoC<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">instead of Latinix<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">why you writing <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">Queers of Color instead of<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">what we call ourself<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and i hear the loud voices of white queers<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">running arround telling every magazine its about<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">your bodys<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but its not<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">its about you desire<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but its not<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">ir about your struggles and history<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">that have been neccesary because of your ancestors<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">that have been challenged by my ancestors<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and u call us gays<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and u call us family<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and u cry in every camera u can get<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and u are on the covers<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">of every magazine<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but i understand u<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">in fear and sadness we stay in old behaviours<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and as the old behaviours of Latinix is to try to handle all the emotions and fears inside of our familys<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">your behaviour is to steel every second of attention and ressouce<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">because your heart was heeling faster<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">because after you start again fearing the muslim men<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">you realized you arent<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">the real target<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">but you know how to use this<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">to fight<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and you can use us<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">again<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">it is a latinix thing<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we builded a word that isnt splitttable to reduce us on just queerness<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">or just blackness<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">or just spanish<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">a word that connect our soulparts<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">a word that describe the struggles of my siblings<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">of my family<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">over there<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">its not a queer safer space because of cis and hetero hate<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">its not a migrant safer space against deportation and racist violence<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">these are spaces<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">that are both and more and over that<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">where we share the bounderies and combinations of struggles <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">the empty pants because when u dont have papers<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">theres no reason to carry an empty purse arround<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">that fit perfectly on our genderqueer bodys<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">where we celebrate our diversitys<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">our souls<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">languages and dances<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">too white to be african enough for your tears<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">too machismo to be seen as a consequence of white colonial manipulations<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">too black to fullfill your now-a-days empty queer that is just for white cis men<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">too migrant to lift our voices that are switching between realitys because they all build our reality<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">just too much and too concrete<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">too much a fight that can only be seen in the US context of migration politics against states that are part of the US but just for good not for nation<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">its<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">a latinix thing<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">and this is how u silenced us<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">in white spaces that are allready oerwelmed by the idea of queers of color<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">in black german spaces that are allready overwelmed by the idea of beeing Black German and proud of their mothers land herritage<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">In of Color groups that are oerwelmed by the antimuslim agenda the eraser of queer muslims lifes and storys and hearts <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">in my Community of queers of color all to hurted by the news \u201eshots on a club of color\u201c to hear and feel the later news and names, that are written also in my passport<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">its a oppression thing<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">how can i raise my voice if we are al so hurted destroyed and killed?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">how can i adress the missing links between racism and anti-queerness that is written in the Latinix history by implementing the ideas of machismo into our hearts?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">how can i adress that my family stays silent?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">some because they are hurt as Latinos and latinas<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">some because they are confused by they colonialized ideas of gender but are overwelmed by my tears<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">some because they friends hope and love died in this night<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">some because they stopped writing<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">they feeling and opinions down<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">because we are so less<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">why even care about Latinix?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are a group in a group in a group in a &#8211;<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">so why even care when they are so many other fights?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">why should we share when our history is the story of<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">beeing splitted from the continent we called home<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">beeing splitted from our countrys we builded up just so the white men could come to drain us<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">beeing splitted from our communitys because we are not just queer, not just Latins <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">we are Latinix<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">why<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">should we still hope to be heard<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">if its just<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial, sans-serif;\">a latinix thing<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; This poem is written out of sadness, sickness, lost hope and the 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This poem isn&#8217;t written in one of my languages because they are to close to my heart, so i jused my little english skills to raise my voice. this [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":905,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[43],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/914"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=914"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/914\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2259,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/914\/revisions\/2259"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=914"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=914"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/schwarzrund.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=914"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}